Beauty - Part TwoDo you remember that I was having a little trouble with beauty a while back? Quick refresher, I was seeing lots of beauty in the world but was having a tough time reconciling feminine beauty -- particularly in the women around me. Part of me wanted to transcend a perceived obsession with beauty. I think I have figured out what was driving those feelings. I had some help from two books that I read. Naturally, my progress was greatly assisted from the impact a few superior ladies. Perhaps there is a lesson there. Embrace that which causes you difficulty and it will show you the way. Maybe it is not "embrace" maybe I just dropped my resistance. The source of my confusion seemed to be how I was experiencing feminine beauty. This could come across as a guy-thing so bear with me. When I was experiencing the beauty of a race, a sunset, a book, a tree and the ocean... all of these sources of beauty were being experienced in my heart. They calmed me, they gave me energy, and they made me feel alive. When I was experiencing the beauty of a tri-hottie, I was typically experiencing it a little lower than my heart. ;-) I wasn't getting the same sensation and something didn't seem right. It just wasn't the same as what I was getting from the rest of the world. Rather than trying to transcend her beauty, I had to transcend "my experience" of her beauty. So, I dropped all resistance to beauty and just accepted it throughout my life. That worked great for a little while, but then a lady popped up in my life who was killer beautiful -- I'll stop the world and melt with you beautiful. I managed to keep the experience north of my waist but then my head got into the picture. As I have written before, dealing with my mind is a tricky proposition at the best of times. Our minds can play all sorts of games with us. They also hit us when our defenses are down. My mind starting spinning all kinds of scenarios in my head and it took me some time to wrestle it to the ground. All the while, I was continuing to experience the joy, motivation and curative powers of feminine beauty. Now, the more perceptive of you will likely be thinking that this sounds like an excellent post facto rationalization of the fact that she is not available, not willing, not interested -- whatever! Well, you may be right. But gentlemen, ask yourself this... of the countless women that turn your head every day, week, month -- how many of them are available. Further, even if they were available, how many of them would you really wish to get involved with? Take it one step further, what if you could receive a continuous rush of feminine power without any associated complications? That's the fun part of my latest method for experiencing all kinds of beauty (shamelessly borrowed from the author below). When I see a beautiful scene, person, situation -- I try to absorb as much as possible into my heart, my chest, my whole body. My goal is to take energy into myself to make myself feel more alive. Kind of like safe sex, without the sex. Physically, here is what I do. While breathing in deeply, I visualize drinking the energy into my lungs. Once I have it in my lungs, I radiate the energy into my heart and throughout the rest of my body. I do this as my chest reaches maximum capacity. It is a neat feeling and easy to achieve as my chest expands. At first, I had to close my eyes. With a little practice I seem to be able to manage it with my eyes open. So if I'm breathing heavy while standing next to you... you'll know what's up
A final thought for the ladies. Sometimes I get the feeling that society can be anti-feminine. In this I mean that I often get the impression that some ladies are reluctant to truly embrace their inner radiance, to celebrate their feminine power. For most women, to deny that radiance, that inner power, is to deny their very nature. It's certainly true in the ladies I've met. gordo - 27 june 2001
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